Traveling No More.

I recently (12 days ago) returned home from a 'gap' year traveling South East Asia, New Zealand and Australia. After an incredible year, I am now attempting to navigate my way through life as a jobless 23 year old back living under her parents roof.

So, how have my first couple of weeks fared? Well, after surprising my family with my unannounced arrival home; my first couple of days consisted of eating and drinking everything I ever missed, from my local butchers unbeatable steak pie to Scotland's famous Irn Bru. I loved lounging in my comfortable living room, showering without flip-flops and spending time with my very much missed springer spaniels. Life was bliss and, like traveling, everything was new and exciting.

Howbeit, after a few days of settling in it was time to get back to reality - time to start looking for work and clear out the storage space that was once known as my bedroom. Things like having personal space became an actual thing, and wasting hours online the only pastime. Discovering my lack of interest in television has been less than ideal and boredom has now become my only constant. 

I look forward to catch-ups and seeing those I've missed, but I struggle to answer the obvious question: 'So, how was it?' My answer is limited to 'good', and I'm always left wondering how I can appropriately sum up the last year of my life. The answer is I can't. It is quite impossible to summarise the year that taught and changed me so much. I listen to friends talk about their new careers and boyfriends, while flicking through another's wedding album. 'Do you have a job yet?' 'Are you seeing anyone?' 'What are your plans now?' 'When are you going back to uni?' I sift through the questions (getting quicker each time someone asks), and I spend copious amounts of time considering whether I am falling behind or if it is alright to go against the grain. 

So, here I am - at my most indecisive - choosing between what is expected and what I truly want; trying to figure out how to get there and ultimately just hoping it all falls into place.